filthy

the unusual incident of me nearly got into a fight with the mr architect morning yesterday during the crit session convinced me that i'm going on the right path. i was expecting the debate from the begining of my thesis, and the fact that it was not happening until now (i was in certain extent becoming less cautious and less prepared) stunned me for a moment and i was not quite ready to react on it. such a pity. he stopped me in the middle of my not-so-fluent presentation (i was nervous of course), said i'm the only one who understand what i'm doing, condemed my computer-generated-ugly-looking drawings as if i killed his favourite cat, and turned to our panels questioning why i was approved in doing such an insignificant design thesis (thesis has to be big enough to be a thesis, this is the logic for most people, for example you have to do a ferry terminal or bus station, which does not interest me at all). i did not say a word (realising yes i wasn't doing a very good job either, you please criticise me) until he used the word 'filthy' to bring out his point "..and you want to put all these filthy food stalls on such a historical site.." i lost my cool and start raising my voice as if he killed my favourite.. something. "well i'm looking at it in a different way..(bla bla) this is what brings character to our city...(bla bla) it is filthy because we the architect did not give a shit about it." (of course i didn't use the word 'shit', i said 'we never concern about it') you see beautiful buildings, why couldn't you see it mr architect, those are not filthy food stalls. everything that is not beautiful is not worth seeing (and doing), is that what you mean?

and i happened to be the one presenting when the visiting students from Sudan started joining us, damn it, i must have looked very stupid.. (thou no there were not any pretty babe around..) but i'm glad i have some temper.